MOMENT OF REALIZATION

Friday, September 15, 2017


listen close, my wonderful friend
there is a secret which i must spill
it is a secret which i am still learning to realize but here it is nonetheless


the change has become normal 


change
which we dread
and fight
and detest
has. become. normal.


it isn't something you notice right away
but one day it hits you as you're driving along saying how beautiful it is
that's when you remember how hard you fought this beautiful bc you didn't know it would be beautiful
at least that's how it was for me


slow down. breathe. it's a new normal. and it'll be okay.

STAY

Monday, September 11, 2017


who says leaving is the only answer
who says you're not good enough
and what makes them the authority on that
why has giving up become the chosen option
when darling, there are so many more
it's not like pain isn't real
bc it is
what if pain is a blessing
what if staying could mean the difference between ending your story without really living it
the difference between life and death
doing hard things is hard - that's how its supposed to be
some days you will feel beat
sometimes you'll just cry
it's ok
don't say goodbye to second chances
don't cross off all the available options to the most empty of them all
stay. please. k.

[ okay so this is probably one of the toughest things I've written. it's tough bc its a subject a lot of people have chosen to brush past for many reasons. maybe you don't deal with these thoughts or don't want to think about them...well, whatever it is, they are still real. still there. and NOT going away. Elissa emailed me + a bunch of other fantastic bloggers awhile ago. this is part of a post series about staying. about realizing that God has given you this life as a gift.  and that, you're loved. completely and utterly loved ]

STOP DEALING WITH IT

Saturday, September 2, 2017



stop trying to prove to yourself
and to everyone else
that you can deal with it
bc there are times when you cannot
and there are days when you just shouldn't
bc that just wont lead you into good places
it'll just dig you farther into your mindset of ive got this
and when you think real hard about this
you realize your hands are empty and truly you haven't got it
instead of pushing yourself until you fall off that cliff edge
hold tight onto the One who can and will deal with it
its much much better. promise

what love does

Tuesday, August 29, 2017


love bubbles over
when love overflows
it seeps into crusty dry cracks of emptiness
and drips down, touching a world of dead hearts
it doesn't take no for an answer
and certainly doesn't fade away
some black souls turn to thumping alive ones again
but some commit to eternal death, unable to see past their burden
through it all love bubbles over and overflows

spilling 
        dripping
               yearning 
                     aching
                          to be accepted bc its goal is for joy to win and death to die
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